Sleep

                                             Have I posted this picture on this blog before? Who cares, so damn cute.

The first time around with Deacon I was really good at sleep training, it felt right to me, he responded so well and it was no big thing. While I would not say sleep training has been terrible with Gwennie it has certainly been different.

Poor babe had her 4 month shots this week and then ran a fever the next couple days. The first night I was holding her at 1:30 am, she did not want to sleep but also did not want to be snuggled. I had a patience I did not even now existed inside of me. I remembered how badly I wanted her. I guess that is why I do not feel a great urgency to let her "cry it out" but guess what, tonight and last night I let her "cry it out". It was not as bad as I thought, and she is sleeping so soundly in her own little crib and honestly I think she feels just as happy to be mine as I feel to have her.

Two days ago Deacon asked me "why don't you ever sneak into my bed like I sneak in to yours?" (answer: because kids beds are pieces of shiz) so that night at 10 pm I snuck down into his bed, cuddled up next to him and whispered to him how much I love him, told him all the things in my heart, well as much as I can put those things into words.

So the thing about sleep is, I know how badly I need it and how much better it makes a person feel but I need to remember to hold my sleeping (growing) baby and to sneak into my almost 6 (NOOOOO!) year olds bed sometimes.

Did you happen to see the most beautiful girl??

Last month I went to St. George with Angie and Heather (and drank almost 100 ounces of Dirty Diet Coke, but that is a story for another day) while there Angie snapped some 4 month pictures of my most beautiful girl. I just love them, they capture every bit of her sweetness. I am lucky to have a great photographer friend and a very photogenic baby.

A almost sixer and a 4 monther

Look at these kids! Geez. If only I could get them to stop growing right now. I absolutely have to catch you all up on the happenings of these adorable children.

Boy:

Swallowed a lego tonight! Ha! I suppose it was only a matter of time til he took his love of Lego's to the next level. No really though, he takes the small ones apart with his teeth and must of just gulped one down on accident, poor kid.

He drew a picture for me at Issac and Lesley's house, it had two stars and when he handed it to me he said "The stars are for you and for Dad because you are the best parents in the world" so sweet.

I just can not believe he will be a 1st grader next year and in school ALL day. It makes me so sad. But I also have loved seeing all the things he has learned from his teacher and just simply being in school this year, I absolutely know it is the best thing for him. I love being able to go to his classroom often and see what a sweet boy he is.

I love how he talks to Gwen, I heard her crying and then Deacon saying "Honey, honey, honey!" which is exactly something I would say.

I had put the bumbo in the bath to give Gwennie a quick bath after I took her out Deacon wanted to use it. I heard him say from the other room "Ah! This is the life, relaxin' in my bath in my chair" Curtis and I laughed SO hard.

I love Deacon so much I truly feel like my heart could explode, I wish there were more hours in the day.

The Baby:

Oh this baby, what a dolly. I just love her. She is still just a teensy little thing, but getting some chubby thighs. She is growing but still tiny and adorable.

She LOVES Sophie the Giraffe. If you hold it up over her and squeeze it as it gets closer to her face she gets so excited, smiles and kicks.

She is crazy about the bath, she kicks her little legs and trys to crawl out of my arms,  I am sure she thinks she can swim.

While I am so excited for each new milestone I am sad to see her newborn baby days slipping away. I can honestly say I never hoped and prayed for something as I did for her. Every once in awhile I remember what it felt like to be in that wishing/hoping/prayer phase and I stop and say a little thank you.

And there you have it! The two greatest children on earth.