Thursday, May 24, 2012

The business of getting a baby

Wishing I had all the right words to say, I wish I could properly express all the different emotions I feel. I keep writing and rewriting this post, realizing it is not as easy as it seems it should be.

This little family of mine is about to get bigger. We are having a baby in December. Can you believe it? I don't think I have stopped pinching myself since I saw the tiny word pregnant on the test 11 weeks ago.  To say we are thrilled would not even do it justice. Deacon asked me the other day "is the baby having so much fun in your belly? when I was a baby I had soooo much fun in your belly" he is going to be the best brother.

It probably seems strange that it is so hard to share such happy, happy news. The thing is, I know the pain and the heartbreak all too well of losing babies and not getting the babies you desire. I want to always be careful in my choice of words, my attitude towards pregnancy and in expressing my compassion to those who wait for the thing they desire so deeply.

There is also the fear that I have to daily put in check. I try to whisper calm, positive pregnancy thoughts to my belly everyday, telling this baby how happy I am they are in there.

I have been so blessed. Beyond words really. I believe so strongly in the power of prayer. I believe in the power of modern medicine. And most of all I believe in the power of listening to the still small voice that has helped me know when to rely on which of the two.

We are so happy.

12 comments:

Jessie said...

Oh Sophia, I am so, so, SO happy for you. I will think (and pray) as many positive thoughts for you as I can. What a wonderful, exciting time. :)

Lisa B. said...

So so glad to read this. So, so happy.

The Blanchard Family said...

You have a way with words! I cried through the entire post. Mostly because I am just so happy for you I can hardly even stand it (and partly because I am completely unstable right now ;)I sure love you! Positive and happy vibes comin your way!

naptime nostalgia said...

Can't remember the last time I commented on a blog, but this one deserves a comment for sure. So so so happy for you and your cute little family. I know you've waited so patiently for this little one. Yay. Yay. Yay. What a great post!

Amelia said...

Love love love.

gilian said...

Tears in my eyes reading this post. Very happy for you and your family.

Jessica said...

Congratulations Sophie & family :). I am so happy for you. We have been praying for this, and we will continue to pray that things go well throughout your pregnancy. What a wonderful mother & example you are! Love you.

ABick said...

love this. i am so very happy and excited for you sophie. i have constantly had you guys in my thoughts through all of this. love you so much!

Lesley said...

Yahoooooooo!!!!!!!

Jill said...

This is so exciting!! I had no idea! I'm so happy for you and Deacon. Oh...
and Curtis.

Nesting with Grace and Faith said...

Ya!!! So excited for u! U r one of the cutest people I know!

Karen S said...

I haven't been reading blogs in a while, so when I came to this to catch up, I was so so happy. Congratulations Sophie. That is such fantastic news!!!